The Joe Rogan ExperienceJoe Rogan Experience #2002 - Amanda Feilding
EVERY SPOKEN WORD
150 min read · 30,021 words- 0:00 – 15:00
(drum music) Joe Rogan podcast,…
- NANarrator
(drum music) Joe Rogan podcast, check it out. The Joe Rogan Experience.
- JRJoe Rogan
Train by day, Joe Rogan podcast by night, all day. (energetic music) Thank you very much for doing this, I really appreciate it.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Thank you.
- JRJoe Rogan
It's lovely to meet you, and, uh, I really, really appreciate your life's work. I mean, I think what you've done has been really remarkable, particularly because of the time period in which you embarked in it. I mean, you sort of got involved in psychedelics and psychedelic research at the very beginning of it and when it was extremely controversial and very difficult t- to do research.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Well, I actually got involved in it when it was incredible fun. And, um, I was incredibly lucky with my timing, I think.
- JRJoe Rogan
Hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Because I was very attracted to, um, the other side, if you like, the mystical, because I lived in this very, very isolated spot and one had nothing much to do but kind of mooch around in a beautiful place, have mystical experiences, dream of the future.
- JRJoe Rogan
Is that your phone?
- AFAmanda Feilding
Yes.
- JRJoe Rogan
There we go. (laughs)
- AFAmanda Feilding
Oh. (laughs)
- JRJoe Rogan
When did you first get involved or even interested in, uh, what you would call mystical experiences? I'll let you sh-
- AFAmanda Feilding
Ah, sorry, sorry, sorry.
- JRJoe Rogan
No worries, no worries.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Whoopsie. I don't know how to turn these things off.
- JRJoe Rogan
Do you want me to turn it on mute for you?
- AFAmanda Feilding
Yes, please.
- JRJoe Rogan
Okay. These wacky kids today and their devices. All right, here you go.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Oh, yes, sorry about that.
- JRJoe Rogan
No worries. No worries at all. Um, so-
- AFAmanda Feilding
Uh, yes.
- JRJoe Rogan
... how old were you when you first got interested in...
- AFAmanda Feilding
Um, very young, I should say. Um, I came, uh, I had a kind of in the... I, I w- grew up in this very isolated place. Um, I was very, very close to my father, who came back from the war a diabetic, and he was a very eccentric person. And so from three, I was his carer. So I was like-
- JRJoe Rogan
Three years old?
- AFAmanda Feilding
Yeah, which was a lovely role. I mean, I was his little pet dog. I went everywhere with him. (laughs) I adored him, and he adored me. And so... And he was a very, um, out of the... He wasn't in normal society at all.
- JRJoe Rogan
How so?
- AFAmanda Feilding
He just wasn't. He was a eccentric and a charming, um, did his own thing.
- JRJoe Rogan
Hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Artist, um, a farmer, but not really a farmer. He couldn't bear really farming, but, um, yeah. Anyway, so, um, and I suppose spiritually, I had three... my mother was a Catholic, so I grew up a Catholic. And then he was whatever agnostic is. Yes, just nothing except a thinker. And, um, then his best friend, who was his kind of... he picked up as, um, he... the person who did all his work when he was at university called Bertie, um, was... became a Buddhist monk, a rather famous Buddhist monk. But... So he was a big influence in the absence 'cause he was my godfather. And so I had these three influences. And so I kind of dreamt of doing magic, mystical things in the world.
- JRJoe Rogan
Hmm.
- 15:00 – 30:00
Hmm. …
- AFAmanda Feilding
more than any other animal has, um, done it, which is to direct the blood where it most needs to go. Obviously, all animals do that. They have the power to send the blood where it's most important to survival or whatever. And I think that through the use of the conditioned sound, the word, we learned to control that process more than any other animal.
- JRJoe Rogan
Hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
And over the millennia, we kind of built up our power to do that. So, I think that's the secret of why humans, you know, which is a talking, upright talking ape, got control of the whole game, because of our creation of language which enabled us to do all these incredible things we do.
- JRJoe Rogan
Yes.
- AFAmanda Feilding
But it also has a disadvantage, that our basic state is slightly low in blood in the dominant organ.
- JRJoe Rogan
Hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
So we have to keep this str- this mechanism of tight control in where the blood is distributed, and that has evolved with the ego, which is essential. I mean, we wouldn't survive without the ego to kind of, um, direct the blood where it's most needed. Um, people who lose their ego, and in the '60s when people took large doses of LSD, as it was then, every day, sometimes they lost their ego. They flipped out.
- JRJoe Rogan
Mm-hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
And there was one occasion of someone we knew who was in Ibiza, and he'd flipped out and he put the key in his, the lock to open the door, someone to say goodnight to him. He put the key in the lock and left him. And then in the morning, he was still there with the key in the door because the head hadn't told him, "Turn the key to open the door." (laughs)
- JRJoe Rogan
(laughs)
- AFAmanda Feilding
So there. (laughs)
- JRJoe Rogan
Wow.
- AFAmanda Feilding
So we need the words to keep us, you know...
- JRJoe Rogan
Yes.
- AFAmanda Feilding
... under control.
- JRJoe Rogan
Yeah.
- AFAmanda Feilding
So, it, the words have made us what we are, this incredible animal who can, um, you know, have a nuclear war if we want or know all the atoms in the body, all of those brilliant things we do, which is amazing, but we're also obviously a very deeply faulted animal at some point. We're, um, you know, neurotic, psychotic, psycho- you know...
- JRJoe Rogan
Mm-hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Um, all of those things because of this, um, shortage of blood and then the dependent on the meaning of the word. So if we have a terrible conditioning, which a lot of people do, who has.
- JRJoe Rogan
Yes.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Um, the, the, the separation from reality is, in a sense, in the meaning of the word.
- JRJoe Rogan
Mm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Um, so the danger of our society now, in a sense, is we're getting further and further away from nature, in a sense. And that, in a way, is why psychedelics can be a very useful medicine, because they increase the connectivity with the senses, with the, with the internal bodily senses and also the outside perceptual senses. Um, so I actually think that we're entering a kind of new possible age, and that's why for fun I call it the psychedelic age, because for the first time, we've got or are getting the knowledge by which we can actually understand the brain better, and understand how, um, we can alter the volume of blood in the brain, which is giving the brain energy. The, the whole thing-
- JRJoe Rogan
Mm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
... is about energy. The more energy we have, the more parts of the brain can function simultaneously. And, um, that obviously can be very, um, creative, stimulating, um, empathic, by just having more of the brain functioning. Um, and so I think that, uh, the knowledge of psychedelics... And when I say psychedelics, I don't actually mean necessarily psychedelics, 'cause as we all know, one can get these experiences endogenously through exercise or, um-
- JRJoe Rogan
Holotropic breathing.
- AFAmanda Feilding
... holotropic breathing, exactly.
- JRJoe Rogan
Yeah.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Or breathing exercise. I mean, all the spiritual training all knew that. That's what they were doing in the spiritual disciplines-
- JRJoe Rogan
Mm.
- 30:00 – 45:00
Mm-hmm. …
- AFAmanda Feilding
Study, and the first study we did was using psilocybin, and then we saw that... I wanted to do LSD, but we couldn't do LSD in those days. Um, it had to be psilocybin, and as... no one knows what psilocybin is, how it's spelled, what, what it means. It's not so taboo.
- JRJoe Rogan
Mm-hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
So we got permission.And, um, I wanted to do brain imaging to look into a hypothesis that what they do is increase the volume of blood in the, in the brain capillaries.
- JRJoe Rogan
Hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
And hopefully with MRI one would see that, I thought. But anyway, what we did see in the first study we did with, uh, psilocybin, was a decrease of blood in the, um, default mode network, which is a modern expression of the ego.
- JRJoe Rogan
Hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Or part of the ego. And that was very interesting because the default mode network, i.e. the ego, is hyperactive underlying psychological, um, conditions like depression or anxiety or addiction or all of those things have a hyperactive ego saying, "I need a drink, I'm so depressed." So there.
- JRJoe Rogan
Yes.
- AFAmanda Feilding
And we saw that psilocybin lowers the blood supply to that part of the brain.
- JRJoe Rogan
Hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
And so then actually we got a government grant to help us do the next phase of the study. So, I think i- it's very important showing how, 'cause as we all know we're in a epidemic of mental illness now.
- JRJoe Rogan
Yes.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Getting ever more. And rather surprisingly and in a way rather ironically, science which has been so determined to prove that the spiritual is an old man in the sky and it's, I think it's total rubbish, which it finally has done, um, now at the very center of the new healing, i.e. psychedelic-assisted therapy, is the mystical experience. And what we showed is the people who underwent what is then categorized as a mystical experience, i.e. a loosening of the ego, a feeling of unity, those are the ones who have the best outcomes of overcoming their depression.
- JRJoe Rogan
Hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
So it's rather a beautiful little, um, ironical twist.
- JRJoe Rogan
Yes.
- AFAmanda Feilding
That now suddenly the psychedelics are at the center of this new approach to healing. And I think the healing of psychedelics goes much, much farther than what we've touched on so far, which is, um, the psychologically-based conditions. I, I think it can be very, very useful in different doses 'cause what is so wonderful about psychedelics is they have different, totally different effects in the different dose.
- JRJoe Rogan
Right.
- AFAmanda Feilding
And at the, um, mini/micro dose, um, I, I'm beginning to have evidence and I'm just starting a study which shows amazing potential results of micro dose for Alzheimer's.
- JRJoe Rogan
Really?
- AFAmanda Feilding
Yeah.
- JRJoe Rogan
Interesting.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Absolutely amazing, remarkable.
- JRJoe Rogan
Really?
- AFAmanda Feilding
Yeah. And-
- JRJoe Rogan
I was watching a video yesterday on cannabis and Parkinson's.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Yeah.
- JRJoe Rogan
It was incredible.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Yeah.
- JRJoe Rogan
There was a gentleman who had horrible loss of control of his body and this shaking.
- 45:00 – 1:00:00
Mm-hmm. …
- AFAmanda Feilding
It increases anti-inflammatory. It increases tolerance to pain. Um, vigilance. You know-
- JRJoe Rogan
Mm-hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
... all of these very valuable qualities-
- JRJoe Rogan
Yeah.
- AFAmanda Feilding
... in a microdose.
- JRJoe Rogan
Yeah.
- AFAmanda Feilding
And we could be using that with all sorts of indications which need actually more energy to kind of overcome certain d- deficits.
- JRJoe Rogan
And also it's a therapy application.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Yes.
- JRJoe Rogan
Because you do it, and you're essentially completely sober.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Yes.
- JRJoe Rogan
In, in the sense of you can communicate, you see things clearly-
- AFAmanda Feilding
Yes.
- JRJoe Rogan
... everything is fine.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Yes.
- JRJoe Rogan
But you have achieved a, a very elevated state.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Absolutely. But you say everyone can do it. It's only those very few who know how... I kn- I come across innumerable people who I, I know someone who you know, who has terrible migraine.
- JRJoe Rogan
Hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
And, um, he had a microdose of LSD, and it cured it.
- JRJoe Rogan
Hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
And he has terrible problems in getting it. And, um, it's not easy to get.
- JRJoe Rogan
No. Oh, no, it's not.
- AFAmanda Feilding
So, do you see what I mean? I mean for them-
- JRJoe Rogan
Yes.
- AFAmanda Feilding
And a lot of people don't want to have to go onto the dark web.
- JRJoe Rogan
Right.
- AFAmanda Feilding
I don't know how- I have no idea how you do the dark w- Do you know what I mean? (laughs)
- JRJoe Rogan
Right.
- AFAmanda Feilding
You know?
- JRJoe Rogan
And what you're opening yourself up to when you get on the dark web, yeah.
- 1:00:00 – 1:15:00
Mm-hmm. …
- AFAmanda Feilding
the restoration at the point of trepanation is allowing that expansion on the heartbeat to the full expansion of the systolic pressure, which the child has until it starts to close over, kind of 13 onwards, the child comes down. 21 is average, the skull closes. And that's often when the mental problems start, after 21.
- NANarrator
Mm-hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Psychosis and all of those things. Um, you're just at a slightly lower level in terms of energy for the brain. And what I want to do, it's very easy research to do, trepanation, because people are doing it in hospitals every day by the thousand at any brain operation, first you have to trepan the skull.
- NANarrator
Right.
- AFAmanda Feilding
So it's happening all the time.
- NANarrator
Mm-hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
So we could very easily actually, I work with some very top level, um-... scientist in Mexico, and I want to get that study going again. And particularly doing it for headaches and migraine, because, um, it used historically, in my father's encyclopedia, which is whatever, 1912, I can't remember when it was, something like that. Um, it said trepanations, blah, blah, blah have been done throughout history and, um, it is still currently being done with apparent success for the treatment of mental conditions, migraine and da, da, da.
- NANarrator
Mm-hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
So until, um, in the first World War, they did the first lobotomy and that stopped trepanation as just an old wives' tale. So in a sense, they threw out the baby with the bathwater.
- NANarrator
Mm-hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
And I think that there is something, um, it's quite easy to do so I'm, um, uh, my, I'm trying to find the possibilities and I really want to do this research, um, with trepanation. Um, funny enough, years ago, I was at Burning Man and I had a campaign, um, uh, what was it? Paulo, Paulo was an old friend of mine and he got a lot of rather important people to sign up that they wanted to be trepanned. And we were going to do, you know, so getting people trepanned legally-
- NANarrator
Mm-hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
... in a research program. But it never happened. But, um, what I want to say is that, uh, for instance, Jamie, my husband, got trepanned, and, um-
- NANarrator
How long ago did he do that?
- AFAmanda Feilding
How long ago?
- NANarrator
How long ago did he do it?
- AFAmanda Feilding
Um, long time ago. I mean, soon after we got together. And very difficult to find, we were l- uh, looking for someone in Egypt and found a wonderful surgeon there actually-
- NANarrator
Mm-hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
... who did it, uh, who was very interested in the kind of mathematics of, uh, um, pyramids and things. And, um, he had terrible headaches all his life. He lost a day or two a week-
- NANarrator
Mm-hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
... on headaches. After his trepanation, he, he didn't have headaches.
- NANarrator
Wow.
- AFAmanda Feilding
And I think it just gives back to the body and the brain that extra pulsation which means, I mean, you have it from all that exercise you do, so constantly you're getting that extra blood to the brain through your exercise. Um, but it, for those of us who don't do all that exercise, it's good to have alternative ways of keeping the blood going.
- NANarrator
That's got to be a big factor in the runner's high.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Yeah.
- NANarrator
'Cause in runner's high-
- AFAmanda Feilding
Yeah.
- NANarrator
... and they, they achieve these states of elevated-
- AFAmanda Feilding
Yeah.
- NANarrator
... consciousness through running.
- 1:15:00 – 1:30:00
Yeah, yeah. …
- JRJoe Rogan
- AFAmanda Feilding
Yeah, yeah.
- JRJoe Rogan
I- if you don't mind, when you had your own personal experience with trepanation-
- AFAmanda Feilding
Mm-hmm.
- JRJoe Rogan
... what was that like?
- AFAmanda Feilding
Yeah.
- JRJoe Rogan
What, what did it do for you?
- AFAmanda Feilding
Yeah, um, it was, um, sorry can I drink my water?
- JRJoe Rogan
Sure.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Um, I remember, I mean, no one wants to drill a hole in their head on a Saturday or Sunday afternoon (laughs) .
- JRJoe Rogan
Right.
- AFAmanda Feilding
I can tell you, it is not something... I'm a very cautious person. And so, I, I had a deep interest in it because I had very deep understanding of the hypothesis of, um, blood supply, and I was interested in researching it. Then, um, um, my partner, Joey Mellon, um, at that time, he was very keen on trepanning himself, and he, uh, was a second son so he kind of was a bit more casual, cavalier about it than I was, and so had quite a few missed shots.
- JRJoe Rogan
Oh no.
- AFAmanda Feilding
(laughs) Before he finally got through. And, um, funnily enough, then I did notice a difference and the difference is very subtle. You really have to know a person to notice it. But how I'd express it is, it slightly lowers the neurotic characteristics, if you see what I mean.
- JRJoe Rogan
Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
They become, I mean, they don't d- they don't eliminate them in any way, but it lowers it. And so, having seen the difference, 'cause Bart was trepanned before I knew him, so I never experienced the change. But when I saw the change in Joey, I thought, "Well, it does make a difference." So, I had thought I'd find a doctor. So I'd spent four years looking for a doctor to trepan me. Um, and I had people who said they would, nearly, and then they said, "Oh, God, then does it have a hole in his own head. He would have given us one." Or-
- JRJoe Rogan
(laughs)
- AFAmanda Feilding
(laughs) Or, you know, and, "Oh, it could be bad for my career and Harley Street if it came out, or if you died."
- JRJoe Rogan
Right.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Or, you know, whatever.
- JRJoe Rogan
Yes.
- AFAmanda Feilding
And so it didn't happen. So then I thought, "Well, I'm a sculptor. I'll sculpt my own skull and, and see what happens." So, I really studied it because I'm a very, very cautious person and in London, strangely, the, the shop was called Down Brothers, it's off Harley Street, and has all the instrumentation for trepanation. Very early, old shop actually. And charming staff there who showed me in detail how you trepan 'cause I went in as an interested observer.
- JRJoe Rogan
Mm-hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
And so, I learned how to do it very cautiously. There are three layers of bone and et cetera, et cetera. I learned how to do it, so I felt competent to do it. And that, that took quite a long time, deciding I was competent and confident I could, um, do it. So I decided to make a film of it because I thought that what can separate me from the unpleasantness of doing such a silly thing. And so I made... Uh, funnily enough, my great aunt just died and had given me 70 pounds and I bought a lovely little movie Super 8 camera and s- set it up. And I had my beloved Birdie always with me. So (laughs) he, he was the observer of this thing. And there was all sorts of stories which I won't waste the time, but it was amazing 'cause, because we were asked to a party by rather kind of Guardian journalists, uh, top journalists in England for the Saturday night, I wa- had been planning on doing it on the Sunday, but I moved it forward. So, I thought it would be good publicity for the movement if, uh...I, I, um... anyway, I moved it forward. And then there was the electricity strike in England. So if I hadn't moved it forward, the electricity would've been cut.
- JRJoe Rogan
Oh.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Which was just a kind of good little trick of beating fate-
- JRJoe Rogan
Mm-hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
... to do it. So anyway, I did it very, very carefully with a hand trepan in the mirror. Perfect little operation.
- JRJoe Rogan
What kind... was it a drill?
- AFAmanda Feilding
Drill, electric drill. But I used a ball with a flat bottom so it couldn't damage the membrane 'cause obviously what one's frightened of is damaging the membrane surrounding the brain.
- 1:30:00 – 1:40:13
Yes, and very much…
- JRJoe Rogan
- AFAmanda Feilding
Yes, and very much associated with religious practice-
- JRJoe Rogan
Mm-hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
... basically. Um, whatever, you know, very often, funny enough, there's, in Mongolia, some trepanned skulls and nearby is a very beautiful, this is very early, I forget, BC, long, 700 maybe, a little beautiful basket with cannabis, rather high THC cannabis in it. I mean, I think they go together, um, the trepanation, you know, like in, um, Mexico, they were, there were lots of trepanations, and they went with, uh, the kind of spiritual practices.
- JRJoe Rogan
It's very fascinating to me that from the moment human beings have discovered altered states of consciousness, whenever that was, that it's always been a part of this desire to sort of escape the confines of modern consciousness or of natural consciousness.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Uh, yeah. It's to kind of slightly expand.
- JRJoe Rogan
Yes.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Slightly get back the childhood experience.
- JRJoe Rogan
Mm, yeah.
- AFAmanda Feilding
I think that-
- JRJoe Rogan
Joy, wonder.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Yeah.
- JRJoe Rogan
Yeah.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Joy-
- JRJoe Rogan
Yeah.
- AFAmanda Feilding
... wonder. I do think it's that, and I think it's still that, and I think that's a very healthy urge.
- JRJoe Rogan
Yes.
- AFAmanda Feilding
And I think therefore we should, I really s- (laughs) seriously think we should do-... research on trepanation, which I can very easily do. It, it just needs ethical approval. That's the only problem.
- JRJoe Rogan
Mm-hmm. Do you think-
- AFAmanda Feilding
Um-
- JRJoe Rogan
... that it's warranted? Uh, do you think that the use of psychedelics and, uh, psychedelic therapy can replace that? That it's not necessary?
- AFAmanda Feilding
Um, no, I don't think it replaces it. I think they're, as they were in the ancient times, they're, they're complementary.
- JRJoe Rogan
Mm-hmm.
- AFAmanda Feilding
They're, they're bo- both moving in the same direction of trying to increase the energy supply to the brain.
- JRJoe Rogan
Yeah.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Basically. And I think that's very key for our future survival, because at the moment, I think we're at a very critical time, because our artificial intelligence is getting greater than our own.
- JRJoe Rogan
Yeah.
- AFAmanda Feilding
Et cetera, et cetera. There's all sorts of forces which, which kind of build the danger up.
- JRJoe Rogan
Yes.
- AFAmanda Feilding
So, we need internal growth to balance that technological growth.
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