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Joe Rogan Experience #1787 - Dakota Meyer

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  1. 0:000:12

    Intro

    1. DM

      (drumbeats) Joe Rogan podcast. Check it out.

    2. NA

      The Joe Rogan Experience.

    3. Train by day, Joe Rogan podcast by night. All day. (instrumental music plays)

  2. 0:122:06

    Why Dakota wrote 'The Way Forward' (purpose beyond yourself)

    1. JR

      Dakota, what's happening brother? How are you?

    2. DM

      Good to see you. What's up, man?

    3. JR

      You wrote a book, man.

    4. DM

      I did. I did, with, with Rob O'Neil.

    5. JR

      The Way Forward.

    6. DM

      Yeah.

    7. JR

      Master life's toughest battles, and create your lasting legacy. What, uh, what drove you to this?

    8. DM

      You know, like, I, I, I think that there was, like, a p- a point in my life to where I kind of just j- had, you know, kind of put it all together of, like, wanting to help people. You know, like the way forward. There's always a way forward. You know, my, my life's been such a shit show in so many ways. (laughs) Um, and s- obviously Rob's has too. That was one thing we could relate on is, like, you know, we both came from two different places, did two different things, but, like, there's always a way forward, you know, focusing on what matters.

    9. JR

      Was there a time in your life where you didn't think there was a way forward? Were you...

    10. DM

      Yeah. Yeah, I mean, I, I wrote about that in my first book about, (clears throat) you know, a time that, um, I just didn't know if there was a way forward. But, you know, what, what I, what I learned was, is like, you know, when you don't see a way forward, it's because your purpose is yourself, and it's not other things, right? People that, people that are lost. Or, I felt like when I'm lost is when I'm too busy focusing on things for me and that... My, my purpose is me, and it's not, like, the things that are around me, the things that matter.

    11. JR

      Like, in what way? What do you mean?

    12. DM

      (smacks lips) You know, like my kids. Like, my friends. My circle, right?

    13. JR

      Mm-hmm.

    14. DM

      Like, doing something bigger than me. Like, focusing on something that's, that's bigger than, than just, you know, trying to survive. Like, okay, well, I'm gonna go pay my bills. Well, that's not really a, a, a great purpose, right?

    15. JR

      Right.

    16. DM

      But, but finding something bigger that you could believe in, like, you know, being a firefighter, or being a good dad, or, you know, just the, trying to have goals of fitness, or start a company, or all those things, right?

    17. JR

      So, did you feel like, uh, at one point in time where y- you were only thinking about yourself, and you didn't see there was any point to it all? Is that what you mean?

  3. 2:064:22

    Post-military crash: entitlement, drinking, and the victim mindset

    1. DM

      Yeah. Yeah, I mean, I got out of the Marine Corps. And, um, you know, I got out, and it was all about me, right? It's like, "Oh, you know, I, um, I served this country. This country owes me now." Um, you know, 'cause, look, when you're in the military, you're... The whole time you're told you're a hero.

    2. JR

      Yeah.

    3. DM

      You know what I mean? Like, oh, everybody's just, they're, they're... You're just, you're just greater people, you know? All these things. You sacrificed for this country. This country owes you. And I hate that word owes, right? Like, owes. The only thing we owe is the bank. Um, but, you know, I, I... That, that was where I was at, and I was walking around blaming all my problems on, you know... Well, you know, I, I'm an alco- you know, I'm drinking all the time. I wasn't an alcoholic, but just drinking all the time, trying to, you know, overcome the pain of, you know, the stuff that I'd seen and things that didn't make sense. And, and then, you know, when you would try to question me or hold me accountable, I'd be like, "Well, (scoffs) you didn't go through what I went through." Right? And so, how are you gonna argue it? Um, you know, and I was surrounded by that. I was, I was the victim. I made myself the victim of, of life. And, you know, at that point was where I got the lowest, right? Like, I, I just couldn't... You know, 'cause at some point, like, people are gonna, they're gonna try to help you.

    4. JR

      Mm-hmm.

    5. DM

      Like, that's the great thing about the world is people are gonna help you. People want to help. But they can only help you so far. Like, they're not gonna drown with you.

    6. JR

      Mm-hmm.

    7. DM

      Especially when you're not choosing to, to, to get better. And that was where I was at, you know. Like, just drinking all the time. You know, being... I was, I was an asshole. Like, I mean, I'm still an asshole, but just a different way.

    8. JR

      (laughs)

    9. DM

      (laughs) Uh, you know. Um, I was an asshole, and just, you know, blaming, blaming the world for my problems, when really, I was the problem. You know? I just didn't have anything bigger than me. And I would surround myself by people who would, who wanted to coddle me, right? Like, "Oh, Dakota, you know, what you've gone through, you know, you, you deserve... You know, you're... It, it's okay. This is normal for what you've gone through." And it's like, no. No, no. Like, that's what America is about, is the comeback story, right? Like, everybody's gonna go through their problems. Everybody's gonna have their lumps, but America, they, they want the comeback story, you know?

    10. JR

      What was it that made you turn around? Like, did you have a moment? Did, did... Is it something you read? Is it something you learned?

  4. 4:227:19

    The turning point: the night he tried to end his life

    1. DM

      No, I, um... You know, so I was living at my dad's house. I was living with my dad. Uh, my dad's just an incredible man. And, um, one night, I'm, I was out drinking somewhere, and I was driving home on this road. And I just seen, like, the pain I was causing the people around me, right? Like, my dad was never gonna kick me out of the house, but I, I mean, I just seen, like, the disappointment, right? Like, the disappointment in people, uh, that I was, that I was bringing. And, um, I was driving down the road one night, and I just said, "Look, this is it." Like, "I'm done." I pulled over at my buddy's shop. Uh, he had a welding shop. And I... 'Cause I knew that I didn't want to inconvenience anybody to have to, "Well, where's he at?" This huge search. I knew he would be in at 8:00, or 6:00, 6:00 to 8:00 in the morning. He comes in every day. Um, I pulled over and, uh, parked right in front of the bay door, and, uh, pulled my gun out, and I stuck it to my head and squeezed the trigger. And, uh, so, like, somebody had unloaded that gun. Uh, I'd shot it that day, actually. I'd shot this Glock 40 that day. Um, and it was the loudest click I've ever heard in my life, and probably the quickest sobering thing that I've ever seen. (clicks tongue) (exhales)

    2. JR

      Holy shit.

    3. DM

      (clicks tongue) Um... (exhales) And so, I sat there, and I, uh, I... I just told myself that if I'm gonna continue to live life like I am and waste it, then I know how to load this gun. I need to just rack it back and get it over with. But I just made this deal with myself that if I'm gonna put, put the car in drive and go home, that, like, this is not an option ever again. And, um...... I, you know, God gave me a different ... Had a different, different, different outcome for me. And I drove home, and ever since then, I mean, I mean, you know, look, I think we all, I think we all go through moments where we don't know ... there, there's always these moments where we don't know if we can get out of it, right? Like, that's normal.

    4. JR

      Yeah.

    5. DM

      But for that to stay that way is not normal, right? And that was, you know, I, I, I like slowed up on drinking. I didn't stop, obviously. I didn't st- really slow up as where I needed to be until I had my child. Um, but I got a lot better, right? I started surrounding myself with different people, people who weren't gonna buy in and support my bullshit, you know?

    6. JR

      So that moment when the gun went click, like, i- in your mind is there like a clear change between before that moment and after that moment? Was there like a ... I mean, was there a, there, there was there a, was it like a realization? Was it, it was just-

    7. DM

      Mm-hmm.

    8. JR

      ... like you felt like you got a second chance at life? Like ...

  5. 7:199:08

    Living for your fallen teammates: guilt, meaning, and responsibility

    1. DM

      Yeah, I mean, look, I've ... Yeah. I mean, I've been in so many situations where I was supposed to die, or I thought I ... Like, there's been at least five or six situations where it wasn't that I thought I was gonna die, it was that I knew I was gonna die. And, um-

    2. JR

      In combat situations?

    3. DM

      In combat situations, right? It's a totally different experience, though. You know, this one was like, it's like, get, like, like why? Like, you know? And, and I think at that moment I realized that I was only feeling sorry for myself because if my teammates, like if losing my teammates ... You know, it, it, I mean, it sucks. Like, it still sucks. Like, I, I, I sometimes I don't even know if I have even came to the realization that I'll never see my guys again. Um, uh, and I don't know why. It's kind of weird, but, uh, you know, I don't know why. But I think that, like, I just realized that I need to live a life, if I don't want to do it for myself, then I need to live a life that's worthy of their sacrifices, right? Like, how stupid is it, how selfish of it, of me, someone who has seen what the cost of freedom is, or someone who has seen the sacrifices that people have gave who don't get it, don't get it tomorrow. They gave their today so that we can have a tomorrow. And how selfish of it is it for me to walk around and, and, and, you know, be a drunk asshole, and that's the representation that I'm gonna represent their sacrifices? Like, it's, it's just, it's such a, um, it's just not right. And that was at that moment that all that started to come together, that, no, no, I just feel sorry for myself, not them. They don't feel anything. So, I'm feeling sorry for myself, and then as I'm doing that, I'm wasting days that, that they, I guarantee they wish they had.

  6. 9:0811:44

    Veteran suicide crisis and the mental health gap

    1. JR

      Yeah. Um, it's such a common problem with veterans. I mean, I believe at one point in time, I don't know what the, the status is now, but at one point in time, more veterans had died by suicide, um, in Afghanistan than had died from combat.

    2. DM

      Yeah, I mean, I've lost more guys since being home to suicide than I ever lost in combat.

    3. JR

      What is, um ... Let's see what that number is. See if you can find ... There, I think m- just, just Google more veterans die from suicide than combat, 'cause I think that was what they were trying to, uh, drill into people was that asking people to go over there and fight and to see the horrors that they see and to, to see friends die and loved ones die, and then to ask them to come back and have life just be normal. Look at this. Four times as many troops and vets have died by suicide as in combat.

    4. DM

      Yeah.

    5. JR

      Holy shit.

    6. DM

      Yeah.

    7. JR

      So this is not a, an uncommon problem. It's a, it's a giant problem.

    8. DM

      Yeah, it's, I mean, it's a huge problem.

    9. JR

      They don't ... I don't, man, I don't know what kind of training they give you when you're about to leave the militory- military, or when they're, when you're returning from combat, but do they try to give you any sort of an understanding of how to cope with this kind of stuff?

    10. DM

      Yeah, I mean, you know, uh, it- it's, it's obviously gotten a lot better, right? I mean, it was more the tough love. I mean, it's more, the more that mental health is accepted, I mean. I mean, you, look, I mean, to be honest, I mean, as men, 10, 15 years ago, it wasn't something ... It was looked at as weak, right? Um-

    11. JR

      You didn't hear a lot about it. It seems-

    12. DM

      We-

    13. JR

      ... like somewhere along the line, I mean, I don't know what the statistics show, but it seems like somewhere along the line, it became way more common to know people that killed themselves.

    14. DM

      Yeah. Yeah, I mean, and I, I didn't underst- I didn't know about it until obviously the, the military, right? I mean, I went in at 17. And, um, but no, there wasn't a lot of talk about it, and, um, you know, I, the more, the more we were in combat, the more you started to see it, right?

    15. JR

      Mm-hmm.

    16. DM

      And, uh, yeah, I mean, this thing of PTSD, but I mean, PTSD is something that, that the world suffers from. It's not something that's only to, to veterans, right?

    17. JR

      Don't you think that veterans have it in a larger experience if you experience combat? I mean, the amount that they have, I mean, so many guys that I know like-

    18. DM

      Mm-hmm.

    19. JR

      ... yourself or some, many of my other friends that are veterans, they just have memories that they can't shake.

  7. 11:4419:07

    PTSD beyond war: first responders, firefighting, and mindset shifts

    1. DM

      I think that, uh, you wanna talk about the group of people that have it the worst is our first responders.

    2. JR

      Cops.

    3. DM

      Cops.

    4. JR

      EMTs.

    5. DM

      Firefighters.

    6. JR

      Yep.

    7. DM

      EMTs.

    8. JR

      Yeah.

    9. DM

      Like, like, uh, the stuff that I've seen as being a firefighter, um, sometimes, like, combat was ... it's no comparison.

    10. JR

      Really?

    11. DM

      Yeah, I mean, and so-You know, and, and over there, the mind, like, the, you know, the mindset's different, right? Like, like, I mean, m- most of the people that we were part of, like, we were there to fight, right? So it's, it's like, it's, it's almost like, you know, watching someone in the octagon fight versus watching someone (laughs) on a street fight, you know, get jumped, right?

    12. JR

      Right.

    13. DM

      It's a, it's, it's a different ballgame. And, um, you know, s- s- e- everybody's suffering, right? I mean, and so, I think that, like, the mental health aspect, yeah, I mean, it's a huge, huge thing. Um, but I also think that, that the mindset, the approach that we take on it is important as well, right? Like, like, I don't need to, um... I don't need to... I don't need to be coddled, right? Like, okay, I have, I have PTSD, check. Um, but that doesn't give me, like, a card to blame, well, why I'm an alcoholic or why I'm not getting help or, or why I hit my wife or why I'm in fights. You know what I mean? Like, well, let's get help. Like, like, let's get help, and let's wanna get better. You know? There's just a fine line of, of, of using it as an excuse versus as what's, what's real on it, right? And no one can identify that. But it's like, at some point, you have to look in the mirror and want... Uh, I mean, look, Jocko talks about extreme ownership, right? You have to look in the mirror, and at the point that you can take responsibility for your actions, you can then change them.

    14. JR

      So when you think about PTSD and you think about the effect that it has on you, um, is being a firefighter, does it compound all of the, the PTSD that you experienced as a combat veteran? I mean, does it, uh, is it...

    15. DM

      Yeah, I don't know. Like yet, I was at... This was a conversation I was having this morning. I, I don't know. Like, um, for me, I've changed my mindset. Um, for me, I mean, there are some stuff that bothers me. I mean, obviously, uh, look, every time, it changes you. Um, or for me, it does. And, but now I look at it, like, when I come in and, and, and I'm with... I'm there when somebody, you know, passes away, um, I, I look at it as an honor, right? Like I, I got to share that moment with them. And as long as I can do... I'm doing whatever I can to make that moment better for them, then that's all I can do, right? And, uh, I'll do whatever it takes to make that moment better. But at some point, uh, we have... We really have no control of anything in life.

    16. JR

      Like, we, we have some control, right? But yeah, the, the, those kind of experiences, like the experience of seeing someone die, uh, for a lot of people, it, it doesn't just change you, but it, it makes you... I don't know what the best way to say it is, but you, you're just devastated by it. And every time it happens, it becomes compounded. It's more and more and more. And is there... Like, one of the things that I've thought about a lot with police officers, because I feel like... Look, there's bad cops. We all know there's bad cops, just like there's bad everything else in life. But I think that most cops are... The experiences that they have in situations where their life is threatened, situations where they pull people over, they have no idea if this person has a gun, if this person's a criminal. They, they, they just don't know. There's so many moments in their life where they, uh, they... I'm sure they've seen all the YouTube videos that I've seen.

    17. DM

      Yep.

    18. JR

      You know, where cops get shot at and cops get killed, run over by cars, and all that crazy shit.

    19. DM

      Yeah.

    20. JR

      Like, that, that has gotta be always chipping at your mental wellbeing.

    21. DM

      Yeah, I mean, we're... I mean, you're always living in that, that s- that sense of, of that fight, right? That-

    22. JR

      Yeah.

    23. DM

      ... fight or flight. And yeah, I mean, look, I... The respect I have for cops is just... It's astronomical, right? Like, you know, being on scenes and, and seeing like... Look, we're, we're... As firefighter, we're kind... Like, the way (laughs) , the way I'll describe it is, is cops are kind of like the dad of, of, of the country. When they show up, like, nobody's happy. Like, there's never a time that people are like... You know, like s- somebody's gonna be mad, right?

    24. JR

      Yeah, somebody's gonna be mad.

    25. DM

      Um, somebody's mad. When the firefighters show up, we're kind of like the cool uncles, you know what I mean?

    26. JR

      (laughs)

    27. DM

      Like, we, we really can't... What are we gonna do wrong, right?

    28. JR

      Right, you're there to help.

    29. DM

      Yeah, and then, uh, you know, when EMS shows up, they're kind of like the, the moms, right? Like, they, they're the caring... They're gonna, they're gonna fix it. They're gonna... They're gonna... They... The empathy's there.

    30. JR

      Mm-hmm.

  8. 19:0724:40

    Fear, misinformation, and the pandemic mindset (toilet paper, media incentives)

    1. DM

      Because guess what? Hate and fear makes money. You know, I, I truly believe that... L- Look, and, and love will go further than hate and fear. Love, lo- love will 100% go further, right? And... But hate and fear, every... Like, think about any time you feel fear or you hate, that was put into you by somebody else 90% of the time. Like, h- look at the stuff we're scared of. What, because somebody told us? Right? Because, you know what I mean? It's like-

    2. JR

      Like, what kind of stuff, you mean?

    3. DM

      I mean, like... I don't know, like, sometimes I... you know, I'll get anxiety about, um... Well, I mean, o- just like right now, like, well, you know, well, let's go pull our... How about this? Toilet paper.

    4. JR

      You get anxiety over toilet paper?

    5. DM

      No, I'm saying like... No, no, no. I'm saying like... No, I'm saying, like, whenever, whenever the pandemic hit-

    6. JR

      Right.

    7. DM

      You know, it, it's contagious, right? Like, freaking out, fear is contagious. Somebody seen somebody go buy toilet paper, and it's like, then next thing you know, toilet paper is all out, right? Like, like, it's, it's cont- All these things are contagious, and it's like-

    8. JR

      Right.

    9. DM

      ... fear sells. Fear... I mean, what... Like, if you thought about it, what was toilet paper gonna do for you in this, right? And at the end of the day, at the end of the day, like, we could live without toilet paper. You know what I mean? Like, it's not a survival instinct.

    10. JR

      I think what happened during the pandemic was people were tested in a way that they'd never been tested before. Like, we'd, we'd never experienced a moment in our life where there was a real fear that society was gonna be completely disrupted and that a, a disease was gonna ravage everybody. And even though it turned out to be a terrible disease, it wasn't nearly as bad as what we were fearful of. What we were feel- fearful of was some kind of plague that would just wipe everybody out.

    11. DM

      For sure.

    12. JR

      And that... I think that initial mindset that people had was very difficult to shake.

    13. DM

      Mm-hmm.

    14. JR

      Even now that, you know, COVID... This new variant, this Omicron, is not nearly as dangerous. It's much more contagious, but not nearly as deadly. There's some people that still want to treat it like it's the thing that's gonna kill everybody. They still want to have this sort of same mindset because that's the initial mindset they had.

    15. DM

      Yeah.

    16. JR

      So, I think when people were stockpiling toilet paper and stockpiling food, there was a fear, a fear mindset, a mindset of the unknown that gripped people, that a lot of folks are just not willing to let go of.

    17. DM

      Yeah. Yeah. I mean, I... Yeah. I mean, that's a whole, that's a whole thing that I don't... Yeah, I don't understand. Do you know what I mean?

    18. JR

      Well, you know, you've experienced-

    19. DM

      We're all at different-

    20. JR

      ... a lot of, like, real danger-

    21. DM

      Mm-hmm.

    22. JR

      ... and, you know, real life-threatening situations. You've seen peop- You've taken lives. You've seen people's, you know, lives leave their body. It's, uh... You know, the level... That's the thing that I... One of the things that I truly appreciate about veterans is you don't get to do what they do unless you've experienced massive amounts of adversity.

    23. DM

      Yeah.

    24. JR

      Just getting through... I mean, you're talk- If you're talking about someone who's a SEAL, just getting through BUD/S, I mean, uh, uh, how... What fucking percentage of human beings that walk around could do that? Very few.

    25. DM

      Not many. Not many.

    26. JR

      Very few. They're different humans, you know? And it's because they've overcome adversity. And for some people, any kind of thing that throws their regular routine off track will fuck them up. Hey, um, Jamie, can you tell Jeff to bring in the coffee and, and cups with water too? There was no cups for the water.

    27. DM

      Um, yeah. I mean, but, but don't you think that, like... You know, the people who haven't... I mean, the only way, you know, you don't have... you don't get exposed to adversity is by fear.

    28. JR

      Yeah.

    29. DM

      Right? And so again-

    30. JR

      Yeah.

  9. 24:4031:15

    Adversity training: jiu-jitsu, football, and learning from failure

    1. JR

      Yeah, it could be both, but I also think it's like you... I think you need some challenges. You know, some of my favorite people besides veterans are, are, uh, jujitsu people.

    2. DM

      Mm-hmm.

    3. JR

      And one of the reasons why is 'cause they experience so much adversity. Like, and I mean, like, it's, it's safe. It's, you know, it's all controlled. It's in a controlled environment. But in that moment when someone's trying to strangle you and you're, you're literally fighting for your life, it doesn't f- feel safe. It doesn't feel controlled. Someone's got your back and that, that forearm goes underneath your neck, and you're like, "Oh, shit."

    4. DM

      Mm-hmm.

    5. JR

      Like, you w- you know the reality is you're playing a game, and that game is, "I'm gonna kill you with my bare hands." And when that guy gets your back and gets your neck, he just killed you. And then you tap and you go again. But even though you survive and even though it's safe, it's a way of recreating. It's like a fac- a facsimile, you know? It's like a reasonable version of a life-or-death scenario that gets to play out all the time. Most of the time, it's very peaceful. Most of the time, it's fun. You slap hands. It's all good. But there's moments in these struggles where you're outta breath and then all of a sudden, this guy mounts you and you're like, "Ah, fuck." Like, those moments most people never experience-

    6. DM

      Mm-hmm.

    7. JR

      ... that thing where you, you have to push because you, e- either you're gonna escape or you're gonna submit. And having moments in your life where you're really tested gets you to understand who you are, gets you to understand where your character lies, gets you understand what, what your thresholds are, what, what your s- where your strengths are, where your weaknesses are, lets you strengthen those weaknesses in a very real, usable way. I think most people, they don't experience enough difficult scenarios in their life. And one of the things that I love most about jujitsu is you could just take a regular person, and you could transform them. And, and through this difficult game that you're playing, you can change the way you interface with reality. You'll, you'll have more character. You'll have more, more ability to withstand difficult situations. They'll be more normal for you.

    8. DM

      Yeah, I mean, yeah, I mean, look, you, you... Until you've gone through it, I call it the lens of life. You know, your lens gets shaped on what to focus on by what you've seen through it, right? And, and kind of prioritizing. Um, you know, football was that for me. I mean, I, I do, I do- I don't roll enough, but, like, I do jujitsu. But, like, um, you know, football was that for me growing up, was... It was about getting hit and about, about having to get back up, right?

    9. JR

      Right.

    10. DM

      About someone stopping you. I mean, it was a team sport. It was your... You're relying on other people to help protect you. Y- y- you're not gonna win a football game by yourself. Um, you know, it was kinda like that, uh, about, you know, lose, lose five yards and then have to get back up and try to get it again. Um, you know, that was what it was for me growing up, was that was my contact sport, about, you know, look, you can look over and see what guys are gonna, are gonna rock your bell, right?

    11. JR

      Yeah.

    12. DM

      Um, and that was kinda what it was for me. Look, I love jujitsu too. I mean, jujitsu's exactly what you're talking about. I mean, there's nothing m- more, more nerve-racking than, uh, someone being on top of you and you can't breathe.

    13. JR

      Right.

    14. DM

      Right? Like, and 'cause at that point, they have control of you. At, at that point, they're deciding your fate.

    15. JR

      Yeah.

    16. DM

      I mean, yeah, I mean, we could, you know, we could roll jujitsu. And if they get their arm around your neck, I mean, they get to decide if they let go.

    17. JR

      Yeah.

    18. DM

      You know? And it's, it's a real vulnerability and test of, of you being there, right? I mean, the more experience you have in adversity and tough times and, and, and coming out of it and, and trying to figure out... And I think that's the cool thing about jujitsu is, is you roll and then you try to figure out, okay, so obviously, when you, when you have to tap, that was not where you wanted to be.

    19. JR

      Right. How'd you get there?

    20. DM

      How did I get there?

    21. JR

      Right.

    22. DM

      Right? Like, what did I do wrong?

    23. JR

      Right.

    24. DM

      And isn't there so much to be, to be, to be said about that? Like, what if we did that in life?

    25. JR

      Yeah.

    26. DM

      Like, check. I got here. I messed up. But the problem is in life now or the way the world is now that you can't, you can't go back. Like, you can't say, "Oh, well, tsk, I did the best I could right there. I wouldn't do it again, and this is how I would fix it." Because now, like, the world just doesn't accept it. Like, it's almost like the haha, got you, right? Like, it's a, it's a, it is just... To apologize at this day and age, like, means you're done. Like, it's almost like apologies are, are... It just means it's gonna be brought up and held against you forever. It's like you just admitted to what they were right about. And it's like, how does that make sense? Like, how do you get better from not messing up? Like, how do you get better from... I mean, I mess up every single day (laughs) and I, I just apologize. And I mean it. I mean it when I'm sorry. Like, I don't wanna hurt anybody.

    27. JR

      People would say at a certain point in time if you keep apologizing for the same thing, you're just getting away with apologizing. You're not fixing yourself, right?

    28. DM

      But that's the difference, right? Is that's one thing, but it's a difference for me to just apologize when I'm sorry-

    29. JR

      Right.

    30. DM

      ... like, I messed... "Hey, sorry, I didn't, you know, this is how I..." Like, "I, I didn't understand how this made you feel," or, "I didn't mean to do that." Like-

  10. 31:1542:23

    Ibogaine in Mexico: confronting ego, shame, and unfinished patterns

    1. DM

      I went to Mexico.

    2. JR

      What was in Mexico?

    3. DM

      Um, I went down and I did ibogaine.

    4. JR

      Oh.

    5. DM

      Um-

    6. JR

      Did we talk about that the first time you were on the podcast?

    7. DM

      No, I think I did it afterwards.

    8. JR

      Oh, really? Interesting.

    9. DM

      Um, but yeah, no, I went to-

    10. JR

      How was that?

    11. DM

      Uh, it gave me my life back. I mean, it gave me my life back. Like, uh, I went down and, um ... I had just got to the end. And I talked about it in this book. Um, and I was going through my divorce. Um, I ... Oh, gosh, I did- ... You talk about not knowing what was next, I mean, literally, you know, just ... Gosh, I was just a n- I was melting down, just melting down from the inside. And, um ... And finally, like, one of my friends looked at me and he's like, he's like, "Hey, I just went and did this. Um, this is the date you're going. You need to go do this." And it was at that point, like ... You know, I grew up in, in Kentucky, and I, I, I mean, I grew up with weed is bad, right? I mean, all of this, right? You know what I mean?

    12. JR

      Mm-hmm.

    13. DM

      And, and for me, it was just such a, it was just such a ... To think that I was gonna go do psychedelics-

    14. JR

      Right.

    15. DM

      ... it was just, like, such a m- Like, it was like a moral thing for me, right?

    16. JR

      Mm-hmm.

    17. DM

      I mean, it was a moral, moral, uh-

    18. JR

      Dilemma.

    19. DM

      ... dilemma.

    20. JR

      Yeah.

    21. DM

      And, um ... But I di- I mean, it was all I had left, and I knew that for my daughters I needed to do something.

    22. JR

      Can you describe the experience?

    23. DM

      Yeah. I mean, I went down and, uh-

    24. JR

      Wait, where'd you go?

    25. DM

      To ... Well, I flew into San Diego and then we just went across the border somewhere. I don't, like-

    26. JR

      Oh, it's w- like close to Tijuana?

    27. DM

      A little south of that. Like, start with an E.

    28. JR

      Mm-hmm.

    29. DM

      So, um, yeah, I don't know where it was. But went down there and, uh, took the, took the ibogaine at like 8:00 PM at night on Friday, and, uh, it kicked in, like, an hour later. And it was, it was like I was walking through this, this, um, like gloomy city. I was kinda, like, walking through a gloomy city, like it, like overcast. Does that make sense?

    30. JR

      Mm-hmm. Yeah.

  11. 42:2351:39

    Firefighter water rescue: underwater truck extraction and aftermath

    1. JR

      ... people's happiness. You know, we were talking before this, uh, podcast about, uh, a guy that you, uh, pulled out of a truck that went into a pond, and it, it is, as a fireman, a crazy experience that you had, um, where you, just tell the story 'cause it's, it's really nu- it's fucking nuts.

    2. DM

      Yeah, there was, uh, um, and obviously, I can't get into many details of it, but there was, w- we had a call. Um, we have a lot of gr- I, I get to serve with a lot of great people. And, um, a call, a, a truck had like-... gone underwater inside of a pond, rolled up and, uh, well, we were, we were initially told that it was stuck on the side of the pond. And, um, had no clue that it was going to be underwater. Um, got there and couldn't see the truck. And so I had gone over the fence and another guy come, come with me and, um, started going to this pond, because I see two people standing on the side of it. And I thought they were already out or the, the guy drove off, whatever, who knows. And so get there and I could see this little, like, white square out in the middle of the pond. And this woman goes, um, (smacks lips) she said, "He's still in there." And I said, "In the truck?" And she said, "Yes, he's in the truck." And, um, I-

    3. JR

      And it was her son?

    4. DM

      Her son or so- so how... Someway they were related. Some, I don't ... Uh, her son or somebody was re- uh, at, at some point they were related. She said, "He's still in there." They had watched this all happen. She's, they were the ones that called. And, um, so I started taking ... I was in full bunker gear, you know, like our, our turnout gear. And so I took, took the coat, took my coat off, took my pants off and, uh, got ... Other guys are showing up on scene the same time. Um, and so I just, w- j- we jumped in the, John jumped in the water, swam out to the truck, and then as soon as I got out there, you know, the truck was probably three and a half, four feet deep. Uh, the top of it was. And so I, um, I swam down to try to see if the windows were unlock- or, were open. I thought the window might be open and it wasn't. And so then I think to myself, "Well, where's my window punch at?" Well, it's in my bunker gear that's on the side of the, of the, of the pond. And I was so mad at myself. Well, at this time, my, my buddy Eric and my buddy Jonathan, um, jumped in right behind, started swimming out there, no questions asked. I mean, just 'cause they knew it was just to get down. It was time to, time to do it. And, um, they get out there and then this, um, one of, one of the police officers threw me her baton. So got it and then I couldn't bust the window open with it. I couldn't get enough leverage underwater. And my buddy, Eric, I mean, this dude is like, I mean, he's jacked, right? So (laughs) he's just, he's just beating this window and beats it, beats it open. And he beat the back window open. I told him to beat the back window open first, it was a four-door truck, because I was afraid the guy was still, um, conscious and I, I was afraid that he was going to reach out and grab me-

    5. JR

      Grab you, yeah.

    6. DM

      ... and drown me. So I was like-

    7. JR

      Right.

    8. DM

      ... if I can come in through the back window, he can't just immed- um, you know, immediately grab me.

    9. JR

      Right.

    10. DM

      But I couldn't get in through the back window because it was like, the truck was full of stuff. Like, it ... the whole backseat was full of stuff. So then Eric beats the front window out and so he did, so then he, um, I dove down, dove in the truck and, um, the guy was in there and he was, he was u- up like, he was f- floating. And you couldn't see 'cause it was in a pond, um, but he was up against kind of like the roof of the truck i- inside and, um, I, I tried to, I tried to reach in and grab him or reach and grabbed him and I just kind of felt where his, uh, up at top and I grabbed his collar of his shirt, because I knew I could just get him out of the window, which it's pretty tight to fit a person through a window, right?

    11. JR

      Mm-hmm.

    12. DM

      So I pulled him out and whenever I did, um, I kind of like sank because, like, I had him with me and I just knew I couldn't let him go because if I did let him go, I'd never find him-

    13. JR

      Right.

    14. DM

      ... in the pond. And, um, yeah, I thought I was going to drown.

    15. JR

      How deep was the pond?

    16. DM

      Probably 10 feet deep, eight, eight, 10 feet deep. Um, but it's mud at the bottom.

    17. JR

      Oh.

    18. DM

      So I tried to push off the bottom with my feet.

    19. JR

      (inhales deeply)

    20. DM

      And, um, my buddy ha- he ended up grabbing me, he got me by my belt. I guess I had kind of been m- like, w- w- went over a little bit, he g- grabbed me by my belt and pulled me up. We get to the top and, um, the, the guys obviously, h- he drowned and so we swam him back, um, myself, Eric and, and, uh, and Jonathan swam him back to the shore, got him up on shore and then, you know, everybody kicked in and started doing CPR. He was breathing on his own by the time the helicopter landed and, you know, we had, we had Tiffany there who was just an incredible ... You know, just the, the EMS people were just incredible.

    21. JR

      How do you get the water out of someone's lungs when they do that?

    22. DM

      Well, you start doing suction, right? So you'll ... They, um, they put an eye gel in, um, to establish an airway, but, you know, getting CPR going, uh, they put a airway in and they start doing suction. I don't know how much fluid she brought off, but, you know, they, they brought a ton of fluid off of him just doing continuous suction. Um ...

    23. JR

      So what would you do if you didn't have equipment there?

    24. DM

      I mean, you just, I mean, compressions, right? Compressions and trying to, you know, bag, trying to get as much water as you can off. You know, they, they might, they might aspirate, uh, you know, trying to keep that aspiration out of the lungs, right?

    25. JR

      Mm-hmm.

    26. DM

      So, um, and it's ... And me, you know, the next day, myself, Eric and, and Jonathan, we actually had to go to the doctor because we, we all have aspiration pneumonia right now, um, from it, from the-

    27. JR

      This just happened?

    28. DM

      Yeah, I've, uh, yeah, I got, I got aspiration pneumonia, right. It's what my cough is from.

    29. JR

      When did this happen? How long ago?

    30. DM

      Tuesday.

  12. 51:391:20:44

    Choosing your circle: time as equity, parenting standards, and avoiding chaos

    1. DM

      Or people who are good parents-

    2. JR

      Yeah.

    3. DM

      ... or people who are good husbands, and people who are good wives, right? Like-

    4. JR

      Yeah.

    5. DM

      ... all of it, all of it matters. I mean, I... And that's how I judge. Like, I, I, I don't see how I judge people, but I, I evaluate people.

    6. JR

      Mm-hmm.

    7. DM

      The people who are around me, the people who I invest my time is. Like, if you've got money in stocks, do you just say, "I don't care what it is, I don't care how it's doing, I don't care what it's gonna do," right? No, you don't, 'cause it's your money. You'll, you'll lose there, right? And I, I feel the same ways is with my time. My time is equity. Uh, you know, you have emotional equity, you have time that's equity. And I'm gonna invest it in people that, that are making me better, that are helping me in, in some way. Not helping me, but, like-

    8. JR

      Yeah.

    9. DM

      ... making me a better person.

    10. JR

      Yeah.

    11. DM

      And, um, I just... It's a simple formula. For me is, like, I... If you're not somebody that if I die today that I want my daughters to, to, to be around-

    12. JR

      Right.

    13. DM

      ... then I don't need you around me.

    14. JR

      That's a good way to look at it. Yeah. And if you can do that, you can eliminate a lot of problems in your life with people that are just... It's un- it's unfortunate, uh, 'cause I do want people to do better in life, but there's certain people that you just gotta cut them loose. They, they just, wherever they are at this moment, they're, they're too far away from where you need them to be. And if you hang out with them, they're just gonna keep creating problems then... One of the ones that drives me the most nuts is people that create, create constant problems and then they get, like, this sort of, um, emotional charge out of resolving the problems. So, they create a problem, and then they resolve the problem, and then they get, they get addicted to that sort of seesaw thing where they're always, like, in a squabble with someone, and then they're, you know, "I'm sorry," and everybody makes up. "We're good now?" "Yeah, we're good now." And then, you know, they'll find another one to be involved in.

    15. DM

      It's chaos.

    16. JR

      Yeah, it's-

    17. DM

      They're just constant chaos, right?

    18. JR

      It's people that are just... They're... Not only are they not at peace, but they're nowhere even near the road, you know. You're not on the road to peace. You're on the road to occasional pe- reconciliation with people. And a lot of people get into those relationships with, with, uh, you know, boyfriends and girlfriends like that. They, they get into these things where they fight, they argue with each other, and then they make up, and they get addicted to the making up part. And then, you know-

    19. DM

      Don't you, but don't you think that becomes, like, normal? Right, like, like, sometimes, like, you get in that, and it just becomes, uh, uh, you know, it becomes a normal thing. Like-

    20. JR

      Yeah.

    21. DM

      So this, this becomes the norm. It's like, in a relationship, you know, nobody starts off by beating each other, right? Like, it starts off by saying, you know, um, you know, uh, like, "Fuck you," right? And then it... Well, that becomes normal, right?

    22. JR

      Mm-hmm.

    23. DM

      And then every time the bar is pushed a little bit further-

    24. JR

      Right.

    25. DM

      ... a little bit further. And then the next thing you know, it's just, it's toxic, and it's just bad, and it's like, you know... We just lose respect for each other, and it happens. I mean, it's, it can happen so fast if you don't pay attention.

    26. JR

      It can. And that, that... I mean, for a guy, that's horrible. But for a woman, it's worse-

    27. DM

      Mm-hmm.

    28. JR

      ... because a woman has to worry physically about her, her safety-

    29. DM

      Absolutely.

    30. JR

      ... from a guy. You know, that's... When, you know, you have daughters, as do I, and that's one of the scariest thoughts is that someone's gonna fuck your daughter up-

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