Louis Tomlinson: When The Police Knocked... I Just Knew! "The Room Was Cold That Day".

Not really ever spoke about it, um, in depth like this. Nothing prepares you in life for those kind of situations. But I felt like I'd failed at the time, that's the truth, and it's still something that I'm unpacking still, to be honest.

Louis, we spoke to your sister, Lottie, about this. Would you like to see it?

Louis Tomlinson. (instrumental music) I didn't spend my life as a young lad thinking I was going to be a singer. Like I grew up in a working class town. Seven of us living in a three bed house. Like my mom used to work a lot at night. She had to play dad as well, so I would have to get my sisters ready for school. And people in Doncaster didn't get those opportunities. And then the X Factor came along. I auditioned three times. First time I failed, second time I failed. And I remember thinking, " (beep) , this is utterly crushing." Just sobbing to my mum. But she made me feel like I could do anything. So instead of running away, it was like, "I know I deserve it. I know I can." So how do I relearn confidence and go for a third time?

When I think about what happened in the preceding five or six years, it is crazy.

Yeah. And the toughest thing to deal with is just the lack of normality and part of growing up in a working class town. I have this like guilt for the success and money that I've earned. And then personal worth within the band, I really, really struggled with.

But you co-wrote 15 platinum singles.

But I wanted to do more, but mostly for me, I didn't realize the value of family time. And the more time I spent in the band, the more time I spent away from home. Like two of my sisters who are identical twins, I've never told them this, but I wasn't confident enough to tell their pop. That shows just how little I was at home. (static)

And then it ends.

And what was really strange was being 24 years old, realizing that the only way is down from here.

Louis, there's so many things that happened in your life. How does a young man grieve?

It's not really something I speak loads about, but I'm, I'm happy to because I cannot have that define me.

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